have u ever felt left....nobody wants u...

cos of ur physical appearance

cos u want some things to be good...

cos u r unbiased...

cos u fight for wat u believe in and ur rights....

cos u are emo at times...

u prefer some private time at times...

cos u are quiet.....


i have gone through it all..i dont know if its only happening in my life but then i feel that i am the only one with this kind of unneccassary problems that bind me up and strangle me deep in my thoughts.......stomping me in the head and where it hurts the most ..neve letting me break free just like asthough i am bound to a big rock with thick shackles that weigh a ton each...


it has always this problematic and i am always so damn irritated by it...but then i have to say that probs like this have also caused the really good things in my life to shine out the best...like my salsa lessons are the only time i get to relax and have quality fun..... and also be fitted in just like everyone elso though at times it goes off track also.....

i do feel way better now that i have told someone abt my feelings but then this will stay with me forever till that something i wish for happens...i am jus waitin in pain...bearing it all...asking my self to e strong....when will the one who shall save me from all this sufferings shall come????...


time shall answer that qstn...

hahah...i had a date wif lala...actually more as a fun nite then actually a date...hmmmm

we danced bachata..and learnt new steps that actually was an eye opener..then we saw some nice salsa vids...

then we went for a cup of coffee......jus some 21 st century style we bought mocha instead,...hahah.,..choc wif coffee.....(p.s lala i had so much fun thanx)

it was a great exp....
hehehe..

hmmm...had a thought to blog about insecurities...hahahaha..watched this teen nick drama on insecurities......and then i realised that all of us are dealing with them everyday in our life ...hmmmok lets jus say i deal with alot of them in my own life...hahah... my insecurities are so obvious anyone will know...cmon ppl so many thin guys out there and then me among them...arghh i look totally weird....even in salsa ,,i thought through it so many times jus to make a decesion whether i shld join it...but now i don regret on my decesion to join it..though i still have the insecurity in salsa stuffs..hahah...i guess i cant get rid of them totally...hmmm..thats jus the start ppl...i have lots more to talk abt .....but now nots the time to talk abt it



hahha...see ya soon...

sorry ppl have been gone for a while..have been too busy and too many things goin on in my life and all/...so have had not enough time to blog lately will get bacsoon okies...(:
hang on!!!!\